been listening to some lo-fi music which is making me emo so let's talk about life
it's already the middle of july, i turn 18 in a week, i move into college in a little over a month.
i'm so excited for brandeis, as if i haven't said that enough. my class schedule is okay, like french, precalc (which i'm so annoyed about like...sure i get that ur helping me pay for my education but...like i'm gonna be the one stressed out by something totally unnecessary...there's no need for me to work up to calc when i plan to major in art history...like...idk man), art history, a writing seminar on minimalism, and heckin ballroom dancing!!!!
after talking w/ some older friends about the "college experience" it just seems so exciting. lol i feel kinda gross for saying this but...yes i would love to hook up with a dude?? maybe just once?? idk?? i've had Zero experience with guys. so many of my past crushes i regret and the one i have now is unattainable. and also this town is small and uncultured 4 the most part and i just want a guy that appreciates art and likes good music and dresses like thrift store garbage (which there are zero of during my time here).
i'm honestly scared about the drinking culture. like yeah go to college, you're bound to go to a party and get drunk for the first time. i don't want to do that? i want to find chill friends that aren't about that if there are any at all? i just don't even see myself doing that. i don't want to be vulnerable in a social situation. ugh we'll see.
i'll be in a triple which sucks, but the 2 other girls seem cool. i'm just mostly concerned about fitting all my stuff in that one room. i don't have a home to go back to so, like i gotta take all my earthly possessions with me.
gonna try to become more regular bc this is healthy to get things out so sounds gr8
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