i'm totally grateful to have a place to stay, get food, gifts, and be treated just like another family member, but it's all this family togetherness that is just getting to me.
my family is not close at all. any kind of family bond is smothered in sarcasm, reluctance, and distance and i am completely fine with that.
my roommates talk to their parents often. i haven't spoken to my dad since i left in august. i'm fine with distance. i'm fine with being alone. i'd rather be alone.
i'm not going to spend winter break like this again. next year, hopefully i'll still be with tyler, stay with him, which would have been much more preferable in hindsight.
i want to go back to boston. i want to continue school, no matter how aggravating it gets.
i can't fake my happiness. i'm so sick and tired of doing this.
i've grown so used to being independent. sure, it's only been 4 months, but i want it to continue this way.
i'm looking forward to my radio show, my mythology class, organizing concerts with bamco, the burritos at currito's. ugh i'm really really tired of break already.
i still need to catch up with other friends (heather, eric!!, jordan). let's hope those will go okay.
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